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Torn
02:52
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Last night I made a decision to leave this place I call home
Got all my stuff headed out started moving towards the west coast
Got a couple hundred miles down the road
Before I realized everything that I would let go
Maybe I'll still go
Maybe I'll still go
Write out each reason I have to escape this season
The cold's been wearing me down
I need some warmer weather to cut this tether
There's nothing certain out west
Maybe I'll still go
Last night I made a decision to leave this place I call home
Got all my stuff headed out started moving towards the west coast
Got a couple hundred miles down the road
Before I realized everything that I would let go
You lost your keys, can't find your phone
Burned up your gas ten miles ago
Indifference is sweet, like sucrose and bleeding, call when you need it
I don't believe in citing discomfort and leaving
Going through the fleeting reasons to accept the changing seasons but
If leaving helps you sleep
By all means
Maybe I'll still go
Last night I made a decision to leave this place I call home
Got all my stuff headed out started moving towards the west coast
Got a couple hundred miles down the road
Before I realized everything that I would let go
And I'm trying just so hard
To try and get myself away from where I started
And it's simply just not fair
To turn my back on all the people who were there
Maybe I'll still go
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2. |
F.L.O.A.B.W.
02:43
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Keep falling short on all my time
Keep checking back but I'm running dry
Doesn't matter when doesn't matter why
Got a problem with why I feel so shy
Yesterday I swear I had it all in line
But tomorrow's dreams must've passed me by
If thens aren't what I had in mind
Guess I've gotta work with what I've got this time
It all looks the same no matter how you figure it
And I'm still alive and I'll fight with every ounce I have
As you punish me for my subtleties and as you see it's not easy
To quell the fire that burns in me as I scream
Fuck you society
Each time I try to break the mold
I'm beaten down and thrown away so cold
Guess my name's still not on the list
Maybe I'll just have to wait in line
And give up like everybody else
Disappear into the same old crowd
live a life that they claim is unique
Or fight the norm till my terminal breath
It all looks the same no matter how you figure it
And I'm still alive and I'll fight with every ounce I have
As you punish me for my subtleties and as you see it's not easy
To quell the fire that burns in me as I scream
Fuck you society
It all looks the same no matter how you figure it
And I'm still alive and I'll fight with every ounce I have
As you punish me for my subtleties and as you see it's not easy
To quell the fire that burns in me as I scream
Fuck you society
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3. |
We Aren't The Same
03:08
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Are we the same?
Did we really make it to the morning
Sometimes it's hard to tell
I wrote you songs and gave you everything you ever asked for
I made you promises I never want to break
But now I can't tell
Just know I'm not sure that I'll ever break your spell
And did you give your all?
Are we still the same boy and girl that they adore?
Are we still the same two people we knew before?
It's up to us to keep till fall
And I'm pretty sure we're not the same
But that's really not our fault
So we'll press on
No matter what they say we'll find a way
I gave you everything and that won't change
No matter what we say we'll find a way
So we're not the same
But you can't really say we didn't see it coming
Does it matter anyway?
We've come this far and I never even thought to back down now
But maybe I should just consider that
Cause now I've seen
Your lack of faith has finally reared its ugly head
So I'll press on
No matter what you say I'll find a way
I gave you everything but now that's changed
No matter what I say I'll find a way
I found a note I wrote with clever words and
You in mind
Another thing you'll just forget
So stay home
Count the blessings in the walls
And keep on
Begging for your next regret
I found a note I wrote with clever words and
You in mind
Another thing you'll just forget
So stay home
Count the blessings in the walls
And keep on
Begging for your next regret
I found a note I wrote with clever words and
(Keep that bloodstained shirt of mine)
You in mind
Another thing you'll just forget
(I won't need it anytime)
So stay home
Count the blessings in the walls
(I'll find my own way home tonight)
And keep on
Begging for your next regret
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4. |
Chaser
03:00
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She said don't come around here no more
I said why would I when you're such a bore
I saw a tear stream down her face
I knew it was time to leave this place
Don't act like I don't know what you've been up to
Those things had me doubting what to do
I spent last night on the bathroom floor
Surrounded by friends who won't walk out that door
Don't you come crying back for more
I've told you once before
I'm so much more than simply just your whore
I fought so many years
To simply find my fears
From what you've done you know you never even earned my tears
Just leave me to forget you and my vices
I know how to grow by own devices
My friends accepted me with open arms and an open heart
Left me wondering why I ever chose you from the start
Don't you come crying back for more
I've told you once before
I'm so much more than simply just your whore
I fought so many years
To simply find my fears
From what you've done you know you never even earned my tears
Don't you come crying back for more
I've told you once before
I'm so much more than simply just your whore
(I've had people miss me, and honestly I missed them too)
I fought so many years
To simply find my fears
From what you've done you know know that I'm already out that door
(I spent last night on the bathroom floor, surrounded by friends I know won't walk out that door)
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5. |
Can't Leave You So
03:16
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Street signs tell me I'm heading west
I don't think I plan on stopping here
The mountains call my name I must confess
I don't think I heard you asking
Am I coming home?
I just want you to know
That I want to go
But I can't leave you so
I can't leave you so
Your light burns through my heart and mind
I keep drifting further as I project all my fears on a screen that we built
On a screen that we built back when we were just kids
But that's not today, the screen simply burns in the roadway
Am I coming home?
I just want you to know
That I want to go
But I can't leave you so
I can't leave you so
The west coast
(Keeps my heart under lock and key)
I'll take you there
(Just wait and see)
I don't know
(Who I am yet)
You know that
(We'll keep this between you and me)
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6. |
This Needs Work
03:37
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I'm lying on the floor
Well I've been here before
You haven't moved to eat
You're just lying at my feet
There's nothing new to see
I'm just fighting with you, it's me
You haven't gasped for air
I wonder if you're even there
The air keeps getting colder, and it's harder to breathe
I thought you saw your dream this year, and hope that you would leave
But still you're just a lost boy, who's got no directive
At least you found a home, a temporary perspective
But this home is not the same, and it'll change next year
I already know it, that much is clear
You can't keep going on like this and failing to mend
The failures I perpetuate, you're who I'll condemn
This winter may not end, but it won't even matter
You haven't moved forward, left your dreams all to scatter
Instead you choose to waste your time alone in the mirror
Your future self is not to blame, instead he's quite a bit nearer
You're not the one I need to trust in to change
Instead I found another, but he's somewhat deranged
You can't keep holding onto me, I won't allow regress
I have a chance to move on, and finally progress
I'm lying on the floor
I'm still here like before
I haven't moved to eat
I'm just lying in defeat
There's something new to see
It doesn't start with you but with me
I finally gasped for air
Just to prove I'm really there
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Breathe in the burning air
Accept that you won't find me again
Let your lungs burst into flames
As you laugh your way through the pain
I promised forever last year
But I guess that's not your choice
I'd still be mangled and torn
If you didn't leave you never heard my voice
This summer's growing old
Its gray hue is holding the cold
And I can't escape your face
No matter where I turn
I don't want to miss you
But I miss the feeling of someone there to hold
Well I guess that's where I'm at
Alone and longing for the cold
There's no point to look behind
When you only fear yourself
And I hope that I can find
Myself from what I was
Cause you took me by the neck
As I gave you all my will
Made myself a burning wreck
Now I only fear myself
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8. |
XxBassxX
03:05
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Spent last night learning the difference between hope and desperation
Drawing lines in the dirt on my way home from failed inspiration
Let the doubt sink in as the sun and moon exchange
Another sleepless night just means another night I disengaged
And the pages read the same thing day to day
Can't help but focus on everything they have to say
Don't have the heart to find my own way
Not sure I'll ever see quite past today
Stuck interviewing interesting people in coffee shops
While the rest of the world keeps on spinning on without me
Not sure who I'll be or where I'll be tomorrow
Just know I'll rule the world and who's to say who'll be by my side
And the pages read the same thing day to day
Can't help but focus on everything they have to say
Don't have the heart to find my own way
Not sure I'll ever see quite past today
You're not who I want to be
But in the mirror you're all I see
I'm told you're where I start
To pull together when I fall apart
You're not who I want to be
But in the mirror you're all I see
I'm told you're where I start
To pull together when I fall apart
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9. |
Brighter Than Ever
04:03
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Time slipped by, old habits stayed
Thought this might be forever
This ball and chain, tied to my waist
Can't stop this burning fire
The sun set long ago
In this dark valley, burying my wasted youth
But I feel like a spectator
Watching life unfold, standing in someone's shoes
I was one mistake away
To losing everything at stake
This internal war it wages on
Blind with rage, deaf with sorrow, mute with overwealmth
But to fight this fight, I'll do what's right
Part the seas, climb the peaks, find some peace and rest
It's so hard looking towards the future
When it's encompassed by the past
The things I've done she couldn't put up with
And now we may never speak again
I'll show everyone
Just what I can become
This internal war it wages on
Blind with rage, deaf with sorrow, mute with overwealmth
But to fight this fight, I'll do what's right
Part the seas, climb the peaks, find some peace and rest
And I get to decide when it's my time
But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
No I don't wanna die, no I don't wanna die, no I don't
I don't wanna die
No I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Not today, not with what I'll leave behind
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
This internal war it wages on
Blind with rage, deaf with sorrow, mute with overwealmth
But to fight this fight, I'll do what's right
(I don't wanna die)
Part the seas, climb the peaks, find some peace and rest
(I don't wanna die)
This ball and chain it's such a waste of space
But I'll see brighter days
Brighter than ever
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10. |
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Another day, another year
God fucking dammit
I spilled my beer
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11. |
Fight Me
03:20
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Left me for dead, I was a fool to think that I found home
Nothing's unsaid, I just haven't worked out who I am yet
Crying out for shelter, all I wanna do is help her
Even though I'm an open book, upon the pages there is no hook
I'm not the hero you'd hoped I'd be
I'm just a boy who cannot see
Don't try and change my mind cause you'll never find success
Sit back and watch me go as slowly I progress
Just moving forward is harder than I thought
I write each line in time but it's not all that I brought
Crying out for shelter, all I need to do is help her
Now I've pulled myself together, upon the pages there is my hook
I'm not the hero you'd hoped I'd be
I'm just a boy who cannot see
Don't try and change my mind cause you'll never find success
Sit back and watch me go as slowly I progress
I'm not the hero you'd hoped I'd be
I'm just a boy who now can see
You couldn't change my mind, not even if you tried
All you can do now, is watch me as I thrive
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